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Can your pop sensibilities sing me the end of the world?

CECILY RENNS LP1.5


Album art and background vocals by Biddy Fox (Also featured on track 2)

Track 3 vocals by InkyFirefly and Chiffon (and guitar by The Olive Oil Mafia)

Track 5 originally performed by Lenka

Track 8 written by Biddy Fox


1.ILY (Alt)

And I'm sorry that I said I would never let go

I never got the chance for it, I hope you know

Please don't take it the wrong way

It was just a mistake

I know I messed it up this time

Won't bore you with the story or the messy details

Cause you know how it went

How it got derailed

Now I know I'm being selfish when I ask you this

But can we at least still be friends?


A 21st century romance with a cliche ending

Met up in a Discord

It was so impending

After it happened I wasn't even the same gender

I wish we could have at least stayed until December

Remember how it all used to be simple back then

On a call, hearing the same song again and again

I hope I'm not the only one who missed it all

I hope you're also missing me


You got me talking all about it

And I’ve got no doubt about it

I gotta be honest with you

That one Smiths song you loved

I hate it


Pintsized little drops of love

Then likewise

And it’s not enough

Go clockwise

Taking different sides

At least I got the debt paid off


Just work it out, please?

We can make it through, please?

And a million different words that didn’t make you stay

I gotta move on

I gotta find a way out

Maybe in my next life, I’ll know better


Just enjoy it

You’re along for the ride

Can’t help it

This is who we are inside

Lately I’ve been trying to stay sane in my head

And I’m singing this instead


I never could’ve wondered - why oh why

Should’ve never promised such a simple lie

When you were gone, I had to figure out for myself

Why “I love you” is so insidious


And I'm sorry that I said I would never let go


I better never talk about it

Just keep my mouth shut about it

And all these memories in me

It’s just gone like that

Yeah, it’s gone


Pintsized little drops of love

Then likewise

And it’s not enough

Go clockwise

Taking different sides

At least I got the debt paid off


Just work it out, please?

We can make it through, please?

And a million different words that didn’t make you say

I gotta move on

I gotta find a way out

Maybe in my next life, I’ll know better


I'm sorry that I said I would never let go


2. Garment District, Manhattan

So the year went by

And nothing has even changed

The world is messed up in a way that's not funny

And I'm still missing you and still lonely


Isn't it getting hot out there?

I wouldn't know

I'm always inside

I don't wanna watch the world burn down

Will you please light up the setting

Cause it's getting cold in here


Please hold me

I don't know if I can keep living like this endlessly

And it's eighty miles above you

You're still out of line

Oh, please don't let me go


um, i walked down the streets of manhattan looking for you

it was late and i felt unsafe

i would have left this as a message but i dont know your number

so im just hoping to see you in the crowd

so i can say


Please hold me

I don't know if I can keep living like this endlessly

And it's eighty miles above you

You're still out of line

Oh, please don't let me go


Letting go is the part that's the hardest

Winter's here and I'm almost done

So I'll play a Beach Boys song and enjoy the show

Just never let me go


3. The Tide

I saw you slipping past through the door

I followed but I fell on the floor

But you aren't the type to run away

I still have much to say

But every time I try to talk, you never stay


(Let go)


I see you everyday

I see you everyday


I'm never coming back

I'm leaving my things for you to pack

And I'm not the type to run away

But things keep going array

And every time I miss you

It never stays

Cause you're still in my way


(Let go)


So stay out of my way

I see you every day


4. The Scene

I saw you standing in the crowd

I couldn't remember your name

But I couldn't forget your face

You said you'd never turn around

Never

And I will never let you go this time

Not this time


Holding onto everything

Memories are such a fickle thing

I don't know where it went

I swear I used to know it so clearly


Now I can't forget these echos

The stains of what I used to know better

I don't wanna miss you

But in the end you're a relic from my past


It was the end of the world as we know it

We were two scared little girls

Clinging onto each other for warmth

And now it's 2020

Or twenty-twenty-something

The world is crumbling in real time, in front of us

And we're a lifetime separated from each other

So how is it that we met again


Holding onto everything

Memories are such a fickle thing

I don't know where it went

I swear I used to know it so clearly


And the scene is set in motion

We're passing by each other just like that

Without a glance

It's like you didn't even recognize me in the slightest


5. The Show

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle

Life is a maze and love is a riddle

I don't know where to go, can't do it alone, I've tried

And I don't know why


Slow it down, make it stop

Or else my heart is going to pop

'Cause it's too much, yeah, it's a lot

To be something I'm not

I'm a fool out of love

'Cause I just can't get enough


I'm just a little bit caught in the middle

Life is a maze and love is a riddle

I don't know where to go, can't do it alone, I've tried

And I don't know why

I am just a little girl lost in the moment

I'm so scared, but I don't show it

I can't figure it out

It's bringing me down, I know

I've got to let it go

And just enjoy the show


The sun is hot in the sky

Just like a giant spotlight

The people follow the sign

And synchronize in time

It's a joke nobody knows

They've got a ticket to that show


Yeah, I'm just a little bit caught in the middle

Life is a maze and love is a riddle

I don't know where to go, can't do it alone, I've tried

And I don't know why

I am just a little girl lost in the moment

I'm so scared, but I don't show it

I can't figure it out

It's bringing me down, I know

I've got to let it go

And just enjoy the show

Just enjoy the show


I'm just a little bit caught in the middle

Life is a maze and love is a riddle

I don't know where to go; can't do it alone, I've tried

And I don't know why

I am just a little girl lost in the moment

I'm so scared, but I don't show it

I can't figure it out

It's bringing me down, I know

I've got to let it go

And just enjoy the show


Just enjoy the show

Just enjoy the show


I want my money back

I want my money back

I want my money back

Just enjoy the show

I want my money back

I want my money back

I want my money back

Just enjoy the show


6. Body Fell

Fell out of my body

And you put me back

I’m not gonna ask how it got here so quickly

My mind is being detached

My body’s all out of match

You’re just the one that I needed

Fell down into love

That I didn’t want


Baby, baby

I’m a natural addict

Maybe

I was just never meant for you

Save me

Would you hand me the verdict

Can I ever be good enough to you?


We’re spending hours

It’s like we were born to talk

I could hear you going on for hours

But sometimes

I don’t really get what you mean


You say you love me

Trust me, you tell me

But I have never learned to trust when someone gives me love

They never come true

That includes you too


Baby, baby

I’m a natural addict

Maybe

I was just never meant for you

Save me

Would you hand me the verdict

Can I ever be good enough to you?


You fell asleep while we were calling

I listened as your voice went silent

I couldn’t wake you up

So I just closed my eyes

I know

I’ll get used to this

Pretending that I kissed your cheeks

And it will always be a dream

I started to cry

I’m thinking of the ways it could end

Cause it will always be a dream

I never wanna hurt you!

I never wanna hurt you!

Please let it only be a dream

Will you ever wanna hurt me?

Will you ever wanna hurt me?


Baby, baby

I’m a natural addict

Maybe

I was just never meant for you

Save me

Would you hand me the verdict


Am I ever good enough? (Good enough)

Can I ever be good enough to you?


I never wanna hurt you


7. Get the Point!

I thought you knew me

That you understood me

That we were the same

And you were the one for me

But it's a lie

Not by you, but me

No one can ever truly know


How anyone feels

How anyone thinks

That's why you have to speak up and tell them

Th at I don't know what you mean

Please stop using these words

I know it's not what you meant

(Light it up, baby, there's the whole night to spend)


You know that's not the truth

I know, I've seen it

That wasn't what I meant

Yeah, and I mean it

I've said it then and now

Just get the point now

Please, just get the point now

What else can I even say


Art is not a valid way to live

At best, reminds you of what you did

And it’s seeping in the floors now

(Please get the point now)


They can never tell you what you meant

So don’t be afraid to vent

And open up your floors now

(Please get the point now)



You know that's not the truth

I know, I've seen it

That wasn't what I meant

Yeah, and I mean it

I've said it then and now

Just get the point now

Please, just get the point now

What else can I even say


8. Was There Any Doubt?

Don't wanna say I love you

Won't admit that I have biases

I wanna claim to hate you

Find myself with words all gone, priceless

Don't wanna say I love you

Wanna steal your soul in a single kiss

Must be another way to

Disappear and not have to deal with this


Was there ever any doubt on the matter?

Doubt on calming matter

Was there ever any doubt in your soft heart

Fall apart!

Were you always fucking lying inside?

All of my dreams prey for you to kill for a thrill ride?


9. Narcoleptic

Baby I’m so sorry

It’s not even funny

Got me thinking

God, there must be something better than this

Put up a fight with me, please

Why don’t you just go up and leave


I was fucking stupid

Might be narcoleptic

I’ve been losing sleep

And I’ve been hearing things in the dark

Will you come save me, oh please

Or are you just gonna leave


Darling, I’m fine

Don’t ask me twice

You don’t have to worry

I’ll be alright

Get through the night

And live through the cloudy skies

So I’ll be okay, it’s alright


Dear, I’ll be fine

Sorry for the sight

If I can sleep it off, I’ll be fine

I close my eyes

It’s another sleepless night

And in the dark I hear your voice


I get angry sometimes

I’m sorry I yell at you

You know I don’t mean it

Maybe I’m just fucked in the head

I think we make each other worse

But I hope you will leave me first


I know I’m abusive

Really, I’m just bad for you

Even I admit it

There is something better for you

I told you it’s ok to go

So why do you ask if I’m sure


Darling, I’m fine

Don’t ask me twice

You don’t have to worry

I’ll be alright

Get through the night

And live through the cloudy skies

So I’ll be ok, it’s alright


Dear, I’ll be fine

Sorry for the sight

If I can sleep it off, I’ll be fine

I close my eyes

It’s another sleepless night

And I’ll be ok without you


10. There Is a Girl That Never Goes Out

Another day of wishing that I could sing like you do

I know I shouldn't say that

I know that you can talk to anybody that you want

It still fucks me up inside

(Oh darling, I know that it’s alright)


But please don't let me go

Just let me say I love you so

Please don't go home


I couldn't help you

Just said I love you

I could've held you

Instead I yelled at you

I know I hurt you

And you hurt me too

Is it so hard to call me your girlfriend?


And when I leave and die in shame

Will you be there to sing my name

I want you to write my story

Then maybe we won’t have to fucking argue all the time

And we’ll survive past all this

(Oh darling, I know that we’ll be fine)


But please don't let me go

Just let me say I love you so

Please don't go home


I couldn't help you

Just said I love you

I could've held you

Instead I yelled at you

I know I hurt you

And you hurt me too


11. The Dream

I wanna hold you by the hand

I wanna hold you tight and never let go

Surely then

All the scary things will go away

And we'll be fine

Dear god, we're freezing in this weather

Let's curl up naked in our bed together

I wanna learn to not be scared of you or me or this world

So

Baby, let's get inside and never be afraid of this

I can make you a hot drink and we can snuggle in bliss

We can watch stupid videos and laugh away the night

Don't be sad, we'll be alright

This world is fucked and we may not survive the coming days

But darling, what's that got to do with us and your sweet gaze?

Let's sing a song

I'll play the chords and you can sing the lines

"Two girls and three chords"

It's fine

We never asked for this

But this is what we got

Let's make the best of what we got in our lives

All I know for sure is

That you are by my side

And nothing else will ever matter to us

Let's get inside the blankets, darling

I think it's -12 degrees out there

It's like the world is freezing up

And all your warmth is all there is

It's been a bad year - a worse winter

I am so absolutely terrified

I know I don't admit that often

But with you, it's always fine

So

Baby, let's get inside and never be afraid of this

I can make you a hot drink and we can snuggle in bliss

We can watch stupid videos and laugh away the night

Don't be sad, we'll be alright

This world is fucked and we may not survive the coming days

But darling, what's that got to do with us and your sweet gaze?

Let's sing a song

I'll play the chords and you can sing the lines

"Two girls and three chords"

It's fine

We never asked for this

But this is what we got

Let's make the best of what we got in our lives

All I know for sure is

That you are by my side

And nothing else will ever matter to us