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Can your pop sensibilities sing me the end of the world?
CECILY RENNS LP1.5
Album art and background vocals by Biddy Fox (Also featured on track 2)
Track 3 vocals by InkyFirefly and Chiffon (and guitar by The Olive Oil Mafia)
Track 5 originally performed by Lenka
Track 8 written by Biddy Fox
1.ILY (Alt)
And I'm sorry that I said I would never let go
I never got the chance for it, I hope you know
Please don't take it the wrong way
It was just a mistake
I know I messed it up this time
Won't bore you with the story or the messy details
Cause you know how it went
How it got derailed
Now I know I'm being selfish when I ask you this
But can we at least still be friends?
A 21st century romance with a cliche ending
Met up in a Discord
It was so impending
After it happened I wasn't even the same gender
I wish we could have at least stayed until December
Remember how it all used to be simple back then
On a call, hearing the same song again and again
I hope I'm not the only one who missed it all
I hope you're also missing me
You got me talking all about it
And I’ve got no doubt about it
I gotta be honest with you
That one Smiths song you loved
I hate it
Pintsized little drops of love
Then likewise
And it’s not enough
Go clockwise
Taking different sides
At least I got the debt paid off
Just work it out, please?
We can make it through, please?
And a million different words that didn’t make you stay
I gotta move on
I gotta find a way out
Maybe in my next life, I’ll know better
Just enjoy it
You’re along for the ride
Can’t help it
This is who we are inside
Lately I’ve been trying to stay sane in my head
And I’m singing this instead
I never could’ve wondered - why oh why
Should’ve never promised such a simple lie
When you were gone, I had to figure out for myself
Why “I love you” is so insidious
And I'm sorry that I said I would never let go
I better never talk about it
Just keep my mouth shut about it
And all these memories in me
It’s just gone like that
Yeah, it’s gone
Pintsized little drops of love
Then likewise
And it’s not enough
Go clockwise
Taking different sides
At least I got the debt paid off
Just work it out, please?
We can make it through, please?
And a million different words that didn’t make you say
I gotta move on
I gotta find a way out
Maybe in my next life, I’ll know better
I'm sorry that I said I would never let go
2. Garment District, Manhattan
So the year went by
And nothing has even changed
The world is messed up in a way that's not funny
And I'm still missing you and still lonely
Isn't it getting hot out there?
I wouldn't know
I'm always inside
I don't wanna watch the world burn down
Will you please light up the setting
Cause it's getting cold in here
Please hold me
I don't know if I can keep living like this endlessly
And it's eighty miles above you
You're still out of line
Oh, please don't let me go
um, i walked down the streets of manhattan looking for you
it was late and i felt unsafe
i would have left this as a message but i dont know your number
so im just hoping to see you in the crowd
so i can say
Please hold me
I don't know if I can keep living like this endlessly
And it's eighty miles above you
You're still out of line
Oh, please don't let me go
Letting go is the part that's the hardest
Winter's here and I'm almost done
So I'll play a Beach Boys song and enjoy the show
Just never let me go
3. The Tide
I saw you slipping past through the door
I followed but I fell on the floor
But you aren't the type to run away
I still have much to say
But every time I try to talk, you never stay
(Let go)
I see you everyday
I see you everyday
I'm never coming back
I'm leaving my things for you to pack
And I'm not the type to run away
But things keep going array
And every time I miss you
It never stays
Cause you're still in my way
(Let go)
So stay out of my way
I see you every day
4. The Scene
I saw you standing in the crowd
I couldn't remember your name
But I couldn't forget your face
You said you'd never turn around
Never
And I will never let you go this time
Not this time
Holding onto everything
Memories are such a fickle thing
I don't know where it went
I swear I used to know it so clearly
Now I can't forget these echos
The stains of what I used to know better
I don't wanna miss you
But in the end you're a relic from my past
It was the end of the world as we know it
We were two scared little girls
Clinging onto each other for warmth
And now it's 2020
Or twenty-twenty-something
The world is crumbling in real time, in front of us
And we're a lifetime separated from each other
So how is it that we met again
Holding onto everything
Memories are such a fickle thing
I don't know where it went
I swear I used to know it so clearly
And the scene is set in motion
We're passing by each other just like that
Without a glance
It's like you didn't even recognize me in the slightest
5. The Show
I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go, can't do it alone, I've tried
And I don't know why
Slow it down, make it stop
Or else my heart is going to pop
'Cause it's too much, yeah, it's a lot
To be something I'm not
I'm a fool out of love
'Cause I just can't get enough
I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go, can't do it alone, I've tried
And I don't know why
I am just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared, but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down, I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show
The sun is hot in the sky
Just like a giant spotlight
The people follow the sign
And synchronize in time
It's a joke nobody knows
They've got a ticket to that show
Yeah, I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go, can't do it alone, I've tried
And I don't know why
I am just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared, but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down, I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show
Just enjoy the show
I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go; can't do it alone, I've tried
And I don't know why
I am just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared, but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down, I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show
Just enjoy the show
Just enjoy the show
I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show
I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show
6. Body Fell
Fell out of my body
And you put me back
I’m not gonna ask how it got here so quickly
My mind is being detached
My body’s all out of match
You’re just the one that I needed
Fell down into love
That I didn’t want
Baby, baby
I’m a natural addict
Maybe
I was just never meant for you
Save me
Would you hand me the verdict
Can I ever be good enough to you?
We’re spending hours
It’s like we were born to talk
I could hear you going on for hours
But sometimes
I don’t really get what you mean
You say you love me
Trust me, you tell me
But I have never learned to trust when someone gives me love
They never come true
That includes you too
Baby, baby
I’m a natural addict
Maybe
I was just never meant for you
Save me
Would you hand me the verdict
Can I ever be good enough to you?
You fell asleep while we were calling
I listened as your voice went silent
I couldn’t wake you up
So I just closed my eyes
I know
I’ll get used to this
Pretending that I kissed your cheeks
And it will always be a dream
I started to cry
I’m thinking of the ways it could end
Cause it will always be a dream
I never wanna hurt you!
I never wanna hurt you!
Please let it only be a dream
Will you ever wanna hurt me?
Will you ever wanna hurt me?
Baby, baby
I’m a natural addict
Maybe
I was just never meant for you
Save me
Would you hand me the verdict
Am I ever good enough? (Good enough)
Can I ever be good enough to you?
I never wanna hurt you
7. Get the Point!
I thought you knew me
That you understood me
That we were the same
And you were the one for me
But it's a lie
Not by you, but me
No one can ever truly know
How anyone feels
How anyone thinks
That's why you have to speak up and tell them
Th at I don't know what you mean
Please stop using these words
I know it's not what you meant
(Light it up, baby, there's the whole night to spend)
You know that's not the truth
I know, I've seen it
That wasn't what I meant
Yeah, and I mean it
I've said it then and now
Just get the point now
Please, just get the point now
What else can I even say
Art is not a valid way to live
At best, reminds you of what you did
And it’s seeping in the floors now
(Please get the point now)
They can never tell you what you meant
So don’t be afraid to vent
And open up your floors now
(Please get the point now)
You know that's not the truth
I know, I've seen it
That wasn't what I meant
Yeah, and I mean it
I've said it then and now
Just get the point now
Please, just get the point now
What else can I even say
8. Was There Any Doubt?
Don't wanna say I love you
Won't admit that I have biases
I wanna claim to hate you
Find myself with words all gone, priceless
Don't wanna say I love you
Wanna steal your soul in a single kiss
Must be another way to
Disappear and not have to deal with this
Was there ever any doubt on the matter?
Doubt on calming matter
Was there ever any doubt in your soft heart
Fall apart!
Were you always fucking lying inside?
All of my dreams prey for you to kill for a thrill ride?
9. Narcoleptic
Baby I’m so sorry
It’s not even funny
Got me thinking
God, there must be something better than this
Put up a fight with me, please
Why don’t you just go up and leave
I was fucking stupid
Might be narcoleptic
I’ve been losing sleep
And I’ve been hearing things in the dark
Will you come save me, oh please
Or are you just gonna leave
Darling, I’m fine
Don’t ask me twice
You don’t have to worry
I’ll be alright
Get through the night
And live through the cloudy skies
So I’ll be okay, it’s alright
Dear, I’ll be fine
Sorry for the sight
If I can sleep it off, I’ll be fine
I close my eyes
It’s another sleepless night
And in the dark I hear your voice
I get angry sometimes
I’m sorry I yell at you
You know I don’t mean it
Maybe I’m just fucked in the head
I think we make each other worse
But I hope you will leave me first
I know I’m abusive
Really, I’m just bad for you
Even I admit it
There is something better for you
I told you it’s ok to go
So why do you ask if I’m sure
Darling, I’m fine
Don’t ask me twice
You don’t have to worry
I’ll be alright
Get through the night
And live through the cloudy skies
So I’ll be ok, it’s alright
Dear, I’ll be fine
Sorry for the sight
If I can sleep it off, I’ll be fine
I close my eyes
It’s another sleepless night
And I’ll be ok without you
10. There Is a Girl That Never Goes Out
Another day of wishing that I could sing like you do
I know I shouldn't say that
I know that you can talk to anybody that you want
It still fucks me up inside
(Oh darling, I know that it’s alright)
But please don't let me go
Just let me say I love you so
Please don't go home
I couldn't help you
Just said I love you
I could've held you
Instead I yelled at you
I know I hurt you
And you hurt me too
Is it so hard to call me your girlfriend?
And when I leave and die in shame
Will you be there to sing my name
I want you to write my story
Then maybe we won’t have to fucking argue all the time
And we’ll survive past all this
(Oh darling, I know that we’ll be fine)
But please don't let me go
Just let me say I love you so
Please don't go home
I couldn't help you
Just said I love you
I could've held you
Instead I yelled at you
I know I hurt you
And you hurt me too
11. The Dream
I wanna hold you by the hand
I wanna hold you tight and never let go
Surely then
All the scary things will go away
And we'll be fine
Dear god, we're freezing in this weather
Let's curl up naked in our bed together
I wanna learn to not be scared of you or me or this world
So
Baby, let's get inside and never be afraid of this
I can make you a hot drink and we can snuggle in bliss
We can watch stupid videos and laugh away the night
Don't be sad, we'll be alright
This world is fucked and we may not survive the coming days
But darling, what's that got to do with us and your sweet gaze?
Let's sing a song
I'll play the chords and you can sing the lines
"Two girls and three chords"
It's fine
We never asked for this
But this is what we got
Let's make the best of what we got in our lives
All I know for sure is
That you are by my side
And nothing else will ever matter to us
Let's get inside the blankets, darling
I think it's -12 degrees out there
It's like the world is freezing up
And all your warmth is all there is
It's been a bad year - a worse winter
I am so absolutely terrified
I know I don't admit that often
But with you, it's always fine
So
Baby, let's get inside and never be afraid of this
I can make you a hot drink and we can snuggle in bliss
We can watch stupid videos and laugh away the night
Don't be sad, we'll be alright
This world is fucked and we may not survive the coming days
But darling, what's that got to do with us and your sweet gaze?
Let's sing a song
I'll play the chords and you can sing the lines
"Two girls and three chords"
It's fine
We never asked for this
But this is what we got
Let's make the best of what we got in our lives
All I know for sure is
That you are by my side
And nothing else will ever matter to us